my eighth grade formal! <3

that's a picture of me & khaalid at formal together hahaha. he got me a corsage it was SO sweet! <3

so anyway, last night was sooo much fun! my hair took like a half an hour it was ridiculous, so much curling! and thanks to kailee, all over me was so glittery and sparkly! i looked gorgeous! okay at the dance it was set up as a hollywood theme, & half the time i was there was taken up waiting in line to get my picture taken with khaalid and gabby and khaalid wanted one of just me and him. it was so cute in his, we did the prom pose like him behind me with his arms around me it was soo cute. and for my picture with him and gabby, i was one side of him and gabby on the other with his arms around our waists. it was adorable lol (: i told khaalid to give me one of his so i'll have one of each picture. i will probably show them off to everyone haha. if i look good. i hope i do!
OH AND KHAALID MIGHT NOT MOVE AHHH :)
anyway at the dance i slow danced with darryl & khaalid. to "no air". it was so sweet. then i didn't fast dance much but i did with khaalid a little bit. he was mostly just holding me the whole time we were there.
mrs. ruttan took a picture of me and khaalid together she thought we were so cute! lol
& everyone that saw me & him together were all like AWWW YOU TWO ARE SO CUTE. haha i was so embarrassed!
omg the decorations were soo cool! all the hollywood stuff! and they had the cutest thing like hollywood stars with like strawberries on sticks in them. it was cute. and the chocolate fountain was cute. and i ate the strawberries off the sticks without putting them in the chocolate lol but my dad says i should've tried it cause it would be really good. i bet it would have.
everyone there looked soo pretty and so grown up! i'm gonna miss everyone from my eighth grade year :( it went by soo fast.
oh & after the formal i went to a concert at the park by my house, it was fun(:

don't you know you can't escape me? ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby

good grief guys what a day!
i think my ankle is twisted, not kidding it hurts like heck to walk on. because haha i know i'm an idiot, but i wore ballet flats to p.e. today! okay so like if we ran half the mile in under five minutes, we didn't have to run the other half. so i went for it. and yeah i did it but MY ANKLEEE :(! and its over a freakin 100 degrees outside, i was soo thirsty, i was soo hot, i was out of breath, my chest hurt from trying to breathe so much lol, and i almost fainted. literally. it was bad. i totally just collapsed when i finished. yeah see, i'll never be like a track superstar. sorry.
i'm starting to think i might not go to formal. :(
i want a yearbook urg i still don't have one!
i realized something today. i have a hot body.
JK JK JK
i have always known that. LOL.
its saaad, my dad's friend's wife died last friday. :/ the funeral's on saturday. her name was amy.
soo tomorrow! bride wars at shelby's house & volleyball practice. i'm soo excited!:) it'll be fun. man i am getting a niceee tan. in my opinion. maybe nobody else sees it but I DO!
i can't wait to go school shopping for next year!
haha i call my grandma every single day, i can't wait for her to come to my house. i'm getting the keyboard all sticky ick cause i'm eating an apple. its green. mmm!
do you know what i was thinking about today? i really think there is one person for everyone. because like, yeah you might marry someone else and never know there was another one out there for you but that sucks cause that person will have to be unhappy too with someone they're probably just meant to be friends with. and i think the few really lucky people that find who they're meant to be with are the people that are inspired to do things- like they write really romantic poems, or if they lose their true love, they write these amazing heartbroken songs or poems. and i think teenage love is the truest kind of love. (: i want to marry my teenage love. i seriously do, and i will. and do you know what else is really sad? well if you find the one you're meant to be with and you screw it up, you'll live in regret like for the rest of your life cause you'll never find a love as true as that one was. if you even bother to find another love.

wait pause my romantic thinking for a sec- i just gave my dog brylie the rest of my apple- that's not gonna kill her or anything will it? craaaap!

okay so anyway- i have thought for a longgg time about this and this is what i think love is made of: trust, friendship, affection, admiration, & chances. i could totally and completely be wrong, but thats what i think. i will explain it :) trust because like, okay if you're gonna go somewhere or hang out with someone, they need to TRUST that you love them and wouldn't ever do anything to hurt them, and vice versa. that one's pretty hard for me sometimes but i know now i can do it. friendship because, okay in my personal opinion the person you spend the rest of your life with should be your best friend on the earth. like seriously your BEST friend. they'd never judge you, betray you, hurt you without making it better, they can make you laugh, you can tell them all your secrets, and they're the person you want to spend all your time with. like zack. haha.. but okay and affection, how can you love someone if you never even give them a special look, or a kiss, or anything like that. hello what are man and woman supposed to do! LOL. no but if you never even touch them, how will they know you love them? oh and its not just physical stuff. i like affectionate words soo much maybe even more than actions. like being called beautiful. or constantly reminding that person you love them. admiration, i think the person you're in love with you should admire them like more than anyone else. like all their traits and their personality. like you could admire their patience, their good sportsmanship. that kinda thing you know? and they should admire you for your good traits, too. and lastly, chances. okay, nobody's perfect. heck yea every single relationship is gonna have tons of fights, unless like you are like enslaving your lover haha. tons of fights and arguements will happen cause like no two people are exactly the same. if you really love them, and i mean REALLY love them, you'll forgive them every single time and work with them to make it better. if you don't really love them, you'll quit and give up on them. but when you find the one person you're meant to be with, you BETTER work everything out and never give up because if you let that person go, it might take years to realize it, but there is nobody else out there like them. and you'll never love anyone as deep as you loved them. also, with the whole first love thing- yeah you're never gonna get over them. and in my opinion, you shouldn't ever have to. :) because if we lived back when like the bible took place haha, we'd all be hitched already! anyway... thats just what i was thinking about today!

you guys wanna see another picture of me and my baby!

we're in love <3>

hmm i had something else to say but i forgot what it was. don't you hate that? oh well i'll add it later if i remember. :)

oh oh oh and do you know whats DELICIOUS AND NUTRITIOUS! subract the nutritious hahaha! banana smeared on my popcorn oh my gosh MMM! hahaha i have freaky tastebuds.

see you!

i guess i didn't know, i was in love and you were letting go.

heyy guys happy mothers day <3
i just made me a grilled cheese! in case you didn't know i am the best grilled cheese maker in the whole entire world.
i am in my bikini right now, i'm about to go swimming with my familia!
okay hang on i gotta rock out here
"WHENEVER YOU TURN, REMEMBER THIS MOMENT, REMEMBER THESE WORDS:
I WILL. I WILL. I WILL GIVE UP MY LIFE FOR YOU, IF YOU WANT IT. I'LL GIVE YOU MY HEART- YOU ALREADY OWN IT! I'LL DO ANYTHING I'LL GO ANYWHERE, IT'S TRUE. I WILL. I WILL. I WILL :)
I DON'T WANNA WEIGH YOU DOWN LIKE AN ANCHOR- IF THATS HOW YOU SEE ME NOW, I WOULD RATHER LET YOU GO FREE- JUST SAIL AWAY. IF THATS WHAT YOU NEED, IF THATS WHAT IT TAKES. I WILL."
haha thats my wedding song. i will by jimmy wayne. its so cute.
woooo shelbys beautiful idea of a roadtrip this summer, i'm sooo downnnn with that! it sounds so much fun i can't wait!
i'm thinking about going brunette again haha, going back to the basics and being natural. (:
i'm taking italian in high school hahaha. freakin sweet huh? it'll be rad

soo my dream for this summer: slow dance with zack beach.
i'm gonna do it, trust me. or at least i'll try. if he doesn't go into hiding when i go to his town LOL..

hmmmm curious case of benjamin button- freakin weird movie! and soooo long!! and it was boring and too sad to be romantic. but mmmmmmm brad pitt <3 oh myyy.
i'm soo excited for formal! wooo!! i swear if my dad doesn't let me go i'll be PISSED cause its gonna be so much fun. chocolate fountain wooo wooo. actually i'm not that excited about that part, i'm more excited that you can eat as much as you want LOL.. thats just the kinda girl i am though!

i'm gonna jump in the pool. bye guys <3 :)

i don't remember when we ran out of rope, but when we did we lost all hope.

Lyrics | Emerson Hart lyrics - Flyin' lyrics

pictures of you! pictures of me!

jumping on the tramp after a day of swimming! :)

bambambambam

ooh i forgot, i'm so worried about indi, my baby.
he cries every time he moves. and he keeps squealing whenever he moves. i'm gonna cry. he's my best friend. my mom doesn't know whats wrong with him. i'm soo upset, i hope he'll be okay :/ lets pray! as amanda would say.

whats new at the zoo! full of lexi's!

idk but didn't that sound cool? lexi's are the most wild and prettiest kind of animal <3

khaalid & tyler are J.E.R.K.S.
like literally, the definition.
haven't talked to tyler in a few days, he's probably in jail. hahah. i won't even get into that, he's such a freak. and a mean one too. :/ shelby knows what i'm talking about!
khaalid GRRRR needs to be beaten. haha. no but seriously he does. i even wrote him an apology letter, it was so beautiful, and i had justin give it to him and you know what he did? RIPPED IT INTO PIECES.
so screw him, mkay? if he's gonna be likee thatt. i don't need that. i don't need anybody. I AM AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN.
just kidding haha i haven't gone crazy like that just yet. plus i am not and probably never will be independent. but its okay!
i'm into these beautiful songs lately i listen to them over and over and over again haha: "her diamonds"- rob thomas. that song is BEAUTIFUL i'm in love with it. "before the worst" -the script. its way good. i like it. "i run to you"- lady antebellum, its soooooo romantic! "hey brittany"- forever the sickest kids. "come back to me" -utada. "till the summer comes around" -keith urban. "always be my baby"- david cook. & "do it for you" - ballas hough band. i can't get enough of that song! i'm listening to it right now. woooo blast it! "I HEARD YOU CALL ME I CAME RUNNING CAUSE WHEREVER YOU GO, I'LL BE STANDING RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE! WANNA GIVE IT TO YOU HOW YOU WANT IT JUST SO YOU KNOW- YOU CAN COUNT ON ME AT ANY TIME! I'LL BE YOUR BLANKET WHEN THE WEATHER'S GETTING COLD! I'LL BE YOUR SHADOW SO YOU'LL NEVER BE ALONE! I'LL BE THAT SHOULDER YOU CAN LEAN ON! I WANNA BE THAT BODY THAT YOU BREATH ON!" okay how sexy and romantic is that? dedicated to you know who! <3 hahaha.
oh, also, recently, i became a lingerie model.


JUST KIDDING. did you believe me? that'd be hilar :D
i hope charity goes to mojave with meeee! i'm like hoping and praying! and amanda, i'm sorry but i refuse to go to girls camp. but you can make me and L shaped pretzel anyway and i'll love you forever (: besides you owe me one from like a year ago anyway. haha.
LOL do you guys remember my "box with things in it"?!!? that was soo funny. okay like if you don't remember its like we were at an activity, me manda charity and i think desi was there too. and we were making recipe boxes top to put our recipes in? and i was like all mad cause i'm like what the heck like i'm ever gonna use this i don't even cook. so amanda was like well you don't have to use it for that, you can do whatever with it. so i'm like, ok, i'll use it for something more useful. so i glued a bunch of little letters onto my box and it said "box with things in it". LOL.. idk why it was so funny but it was.
i wonder why so many new kids are coming to my school this late in the year.
OMG- someone had swine flu at my school. but i hope they don't close the school down so we don't have to come back during the summer. that would suuuuck! the day after we all found out the news people were all at my school it was craaazy.
LOL my dog brylie like whines a lot, anyone who's been around her a lot would know, like about everything. so brylie was just whining and crying for attention and bella(three year old my mom babysits) was like "aww, brylie's singing!" OH! one time my dad had just gotten home from the gym so he takes his shirt off and is sitting on the couch without a shirt and in his shorts and bella walks in the room and sees my dad and goes "jeff. you're naked! you're BEAUTIFUL!" LOLLLLLLLLL. bella cracks me up i love her.

"WHEN LIES BECOME THE TRUTH, THATS WHEN I RUN TO YOUUUU! THIS WORLD KEEPS SPINNING FASTER TO A NEW DISASTER SO I RUN TO YOU! I RUN TO YOU BABY! WHEN IT ALL STARTS COMING UNDER, BABY YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I RUN TO... i run to youuuuu.. we run, your life and mine, like the sands of times, our love's the only truth, thats why i run to you!"

man i can talk a lot. i'm soo excited for our volleyball games tonight! woooo! i'm pumped, we'll kick butt and hopefully we'll win haha. :) i love the adrenaline rush it gives you!
oh and i'm so excited for kaylee's party tomorrow-saturday! it's gonna be so much fun!! party party party!
oh and like you guys know how i was gonna be a teacher in africa? i'm starting to think that might be a bad idea... because there's diseases.. but i still wanna be in the peace corps!

I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE SUMMER! me and zack are gonna live it up <3, it'll be fun. i have soo many ideas & plans. oh he got a new girlfriend though. lol.... but i think he broke up with her. but we'll see how long that lasts! haha.

okay i'll shutup now. who actually reads this? haha. besides chelsie just got home and i have to tackle her. BYEEEE